PeeK iNtO mY LiFe

2006-02-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

1. My uncle once:
- told me not to get bullied in my life..alwayz stand for myself!

2. Never in my life have I:
- bunjee jumping

3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then
- i love him lots!

4. High School is/was:
- the most memorable

5. When I'm nervous:
- i have butterflies in my stomacH! and i will scratch my ear! or bite my finger nails

6. The last time I cried was:
- last few days...when my dad didnt let me salam him!

7. If I were to get married RIGHT NOW my
bridesmaids/groomsmen would be:
- i dont know...maybe shikin or sabreena or natalia or lini?

8. My hair:
- is very very curlY! and i really mean very curly!

9. When I was 5:
- i was skooling at eunos PAP! and i was very cute! haha

10. Last Christmas eve:
- i was out with my frens i think? hahaha

11. When I turn my head left, I see:
- my bro sleeping in my room!! shuckS!! i nid to carry him! haha

12. When I turn my head right, I see:
- my study table

13. When I look down I see:
- the flooR!!

14. The craziest recent event was:
- the moment when im on my way home..me and sulaiman were laughing over smallest stuFF! haha crazy us!

15. If I was a character on 'Friends' I'd be:
- jenniffer anistoN! i love her!

16. By this time next year:
- i would be in my 3rd yr relationship with bee. and i will be 20! yucks! im olD!

17. I have a hard time understanding :
- y zali cant understand y i did that for him!!

18. One time at a family gathering:
- i think was last yr chalet..i came late cause i was werkin n i sort of miss some fun! yet i had fun overall!!

19. You know I "like" you if:
- i tok to u nicely! im serious! i be very rude to e person whom i dont like

20. If I won an award, the first person I'd thank is:
- god..and my mum den my dad..and to my sis and bro too! and aso to him!!

21. My ideal breakfast is:
- roti prata with ikan kari! yum!

22. If you visit my hometown:
- u will see lots of mats n minahs! haha

23. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon:
- MALDIVES! shama!!! i wan to go dere..faster bring me there ok?

24. Boys are:
- boys?dose underage? dey are just wannabee! please lah go home play marble lah!!

25. I'd stop my wedding if:
- i found my future husband is not faithful to me!

26. The world could do without:
- sensitive, quiet people! they are just a a thorn to my aRSE! hahaha ok im being mean! but hey my frens are bunch of noisy people! haha

27. Most recent thing you've bought yourself :
- KFC! hahaha

28. Most recent thing someone else bought you:
- cookiE! thanks sabby wabbY! e cookie taste xtra delecious! haha

29. My favorite time of day is:
- wen im on my comfy bed!

30. My favorite store is:
- giordanO! hahaha

31. My favorite ringtone is:
- the tone he dl for me! haha its cost me 4 dolar ok! thats why i like it so much! hahaha

32. And by the way:
- im missing my baby!!!!!arGH!

33. The last time I was high:
- hahaha!

34. The person who I last talked to told me to:
- zali! hehehe

35. Once, at a bar/club:
- i never go b4..im such an innocent girl ok!

37. Last night:
- my stupid TO was shouting at uS! for being irresponsible..f*ck him!

38. There's this girl :
- whom i like at times yet she can be irritating at times!

39. There is this guy :
- whose name is short fart and he toks to me but not to sab! haha

2006-02-19T11:52:00.000+08:00

"Don't EVER leave the one you love
for the one you like because the one
you like will leave you for the one they
love".

i like the phrase..cool huh!?

hehe

im being random here..

ok guys..im plannin to make a chalet end of march..hopefully its happens..praying hard 4 it...

hello peeps

2006-01-22T15:58:00.000+08:00

at last i can sit down at home and chilling around..i miss just sitting at home doin nutin! so here i am chilling, chatting and blogging in! hehe..

i was suppose to go east coast today..wani fren ask me out but i dont wan cause i miss craping ard with my parents! haha..

ok now let me fill u wat i did all this while...but before i start let me apologise first..im sorry for not being able to be free to go out and not free at all!! i been bz with trainin in sha villa hotel..now im trainin at the rossete restaurant..i dont really go out much with frens..

i dont have a life noW!! im serious!! all i do is just wake up get ready for werk and come back home to slP!!! thats all i do!! my off days are only on sunday..the only day for myself..luckily this week zali is not out from camp so i can at least rest at home..

but i cant complain..cause whenever i complain people will say "u are the one who choose to be in this skol.so dont complain" haha which i find it true..but im not complaining..im just wanting to vent my frustration to people that im tired...

so now zali are in jungle! haiz! im very worried about him..i dont know whether he is strong enough to endure the physical trainin..hopeful can!! he cant call me for 7 days!! argH!!!! im missing him like crayz!!! i cant wait for him to be out!!!!!

god if u are listenin to me now, plez gib him the strength for him to endure all the obstacles he is facing now..both phsically and mentally!

ok lah now im out from here!adiouS~

happy new year peeps!

2006-01-08T12:42:00.000+08:00

ok peeps..2006 finally arrive..my endin 4 2005 didnt go as plan..i shall not mention but tanks to porny and dee for accompanying the whole night..hehe we went to countdown..just 3 of us? imagine me stuck with 2 guys..but its ok lah! hehe..did enjoy their acompany..with dee fart and nataporn irritatingness.did have some fuN! hehe..anyway now im goin thru some shit trainin at shavilla hotel! which is so shitty! tired..but fortunately i have sabreena nabilah and other to make my life there more enjoyable..hehe =] ok lah i shall update with further details..for now im getting ready to go out! take care peeps! byebye!

=]

2005-12-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to blog but i just blog cause i just realise that i only had 3 entries for december..so here i add one before new year comin..2006 cumin very soon..time flies really fast! 2005 is comin to an end and beginning a new yr...its been great for me this yr..there is lots of ups and down..and guess what?im turning 19!!! ARGH!! im so old can??? haha..

now im havin skol holidays..holidays have been great for me lah..been staying at home and goin out too..nxt week my trainin in rosette starts..wish me all the best ok??

i dont know what to bloG!

2005-12-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

haiz! its been a week since he broke my heart..yes these few days have been the hardest for me..goin thru the pain moreover i have exams..so imagine what i goin thru..haiz...but thanks to my friends who have been there for me..now i know which are really my friend who are there for me to listen to my crapz to listen to my fu*kin problem..i wanna say thank u for bein there for me..

to lini: - thanks for comin down that day to fetch me from school..appreciated..=]

to dan: - hahaha..you know now u jus sux iin givin advice..what happen to the old u? but u know what? yet u manage to cheer me up!! hehe..so everytime im in the sad mood i will alwayz think of what u said and thats will make me start laughing!!!.. thanks for listening to my crying everyday!! thanks for cheering me up..and thanks for the advice..!! and sorry to alwayzz bother u! haha single life is problemless?? haha no i dont think so!!..haha..anyway thanks..eh you know what cheer me up the most?? HAAGEN DAZ ICE CREAM!!! iM STILL WAITING!!! ARGH!!! haha

to ella: - hahaha ella thanks for accompanying me..appreciated..i know u were stoning there but thanks for accompanying..if not for u i dont think i will go..hehe thanks ella...

to Valerie: - haha i bet u dont even know i have a blog..but still im writing this for u..remember the day i find out i was with u? hehe thanks for being there too for me and willing to help me..=] appreciated..thanks for your advice adik samsudin..hehe..now u are in bangkok..haha confirm u enoying! im waiting 4 ur return!! hehe...WeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =]

to sab: - hey darling...thanks for listening to my craps..hehe..=] u are so sweet to sms me at night to wish me good night aLL that..hehe..=] the lil butterfly! hehe..have a fun holiday ok? i see u in rossette!! eh wait..we goin to sentosa right?? hehe...must call me ok? i wan to follow!!!!

to nat: - eh pantat ko je yg suka sakitkan hati aku.suka kacau aku! suka ckp apa ko buat utk sakitkan ati aku! haha..cian aku! aku je tua dari ko tap ko suka bully aku! :( haha..tapi tetap aku sayangkan kO! oi holiday kluar lah..da lah ko lain restaurant dari kita empat!! jgn action!! kluar ok?? nanti aku tepon mak ko suruh kasi ko kluar ok?hehe..*huggies*

to nab: - muahahaha u are in hongkong!!... u are with ur family..bet u are having a lot of fun..thanks for craps =] dont forget to come back singapore ok?? i see u in rossette!! =]

to kynniE: - kuDUT!!.. ko the last to know..haha im sorry..aku tak contact ko sgt..hehe..but yesterday i have a very nice nice talk to u!! haha for the 1st time what u said make me think sia!! hahaha ..chedebah shikin pandai kasi advice ah..hehe..hey ko holiday aku pUN!! faster lah kluar!! aku boring sak duduk umah termenung!! ehehe saturday ok??? haha..

to hadi: - even though im not close that close with u yet i still regard u as my close friend!!..hehehe hadi..dont be too stress up ok! i be here if u ever need me ok?? =]

to fateha: - we are not even close..and not even talking..i remember when we are sec 4 u said that try not to be separated and that u dont wan to go poly cause we be separated..yet u the only one who are separated and with your poly friends.im not blamin u cause everyone do have their own life but at least we take the chance to meet once in a while..but u? tell me when is the last time we ever have a nice talk?? sit down and just talk?? i know u enjoy your life now in poly and that now is the best period time in your life? but have u forgotten the memories we had back in sec skol?? you tell me it just sux to know that we are not close anymore but do u take the initiative to sms or call me to ask about me?NO! u dont..at least ella, kyn, lini sms or kol me to talk..i know its also my fault for not contacting but u dont have a hP! every time we ask u out either u alwayz said u busy! remember the other time u meet us at the cineleisure? u told dan that we dont like layan u?you know why? cause i dont know what to talk to u anymore..cause i feel i dontknow u anymore..u told us u be calling us to join us back later but did u called?NO! u didnt.u said that we didnt call u..but u were the one who told us that u called?and when dan called u were on the way home? haiz..fat...whatever it is..dont worry i wont forget u as a friend.but dont say that it just sux to know we are not close anymore cause u never make time for us anymore..at least the rest did..IF whatever i said in this whole paragraph has hurt u or u feel its unfair im sorry..cause im tellin u how i feel about our friendship! so take care AND HAVE FUN IN YOUR LIFE. =]

i dont know why i just write individual...but somehow i feel like iT! hehe..so to kampung clan..have a fun holidays ok! i see u in two weeks timE! .. =]=]

haiz

2005-12-05T01:33:00.000+08:00

he broke my heart totally! the pain im goin thru now is Indescribable.i feel i also dont know what i feel. i now emtionaless.the pain im now feel is so argh! i dont know what i typing too..nobody will understand my feeling and thinking...i just dont know what to do! is this a sign for me to give him up? or is just another obstacles for me to go thru with him?tell me please.

haiz im sad can!

2005-12-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

fuck! im feelin fuck up today!

i dont know what to write

2005-11-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

2 more days before his life will change..for the betta or worse..nobody knows..he's entering a new step in his life..haiz..i dont know lah!i am neither sad nor happy..in fact i have no feeling now..i dont know what to feel..and how to feel..im emotionless!!

boredom.kills.me

2005-11-23T08:30:00.000+08:00

now im in school waiting for MS LAME to start proper lesson...guess what people?!! today i was the earliest to come for the lessonN!! haha never in my life i was early!! yeah!!! three cheers for aisyah!! hahaha..ok im being lame!!...

life for me have been sucky and also great..i dont know how to explain..

hey to people who knows zali...

he is goin in NS nxt week!! arGH!!!!!!! fuc*!! im goin be alone in this tiny islamnd..poor me..his camp is at pulau tekong..he is in army lah! weeeeee at least not cd where all the mats go there..hehe..im proud of u zali!!!!!!!! haha..ok im lame!! haha..so he will leave alone in this tiny island poor me..but yeah i have more time for my friends..so people.im free aft 2 dec!! so anything ask me out oK!! hehe...

to zali: -

haiz its goin be sad for us to be apart for a while..but let this test our relationship..goin in NS will be the obstacles we goin to face..we noot goin to spend much time with each other...and hopefully this wont affect our relationship!..

you know..as days go by i have lesser friends each day! i getting more and more drifted apart from my sec school friends...this year is only the 2nd yr we graduated yet we are drifted apart..thats why there is a saying "friends come and friends go" its easy to make friends but to maintain a friendship is hard..i appreciate every friends of mine..just want to say to everyone..all the best in your life..make you are alwayz be happy! =]

woke.up.at.the.wrong.side.of.bed

2005-11-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

today everything goes wrong!
people are angry at me for things i didnt do purposely
i did something which i shouldnt do.
my mum found out something she shouldn know.
his bike kena tarik for no particular reason.

my life just sux

selamat hari raya!

2005-11-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

haha i know its too late to wish people...haha..but still its betta late than never right?haha..so anyway to my peeps..selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin..ok let me tell u more about my raya this year..haha it just sux..this yr is the first year we dont have vehicle..so its abit kekok for my family especially to my dad cause he so used to drive around his van around the whole singapore..so the first day as usual..salam minta maaf..hehe i wanted to cry cause seriously i did a lot of sinful thing towards to my parents..hehe..sorry mum dad..so after that my sis and bro took the bike to my grandma house..hehe..pakai baju kurung naik motor..cool right! haha..so left me dad and mum..so planning to take the mrt..but i was complaining to my dad that i lazy to take the mrt..not fun ah! but my mum wan to take the taxi..so my dad say..tahan je..then naik!! nanti mak ko tak leh cakap apa2 haha..so i just tahan the taxi and took the taxi..my mum was like ni lah krg dua beranak!! haha..funnylah!! then went to my grandmum house..my cousin some haven reach..some went home already..so sad!! unlike other years..where semua kumpul then minta ramai2..so this yr not fun..but got some of my cousin! as usual the auntie will go to my nenek bilik and gossip..and my cousins all watch stupid tv shows!! hehe..aft that went to my auntie house nearby! hehe chill there for awhile and then go home..at night my uncle all came over my house so have to entertain them...
until then till now we dont really go out except that weekend my aunt sewa lorry ramai2 jalan raya..until today i never finish my jalan raya..never go to lots of house..so that mean my collection is so little..so sad can! hehe..but its ok i busy with my schools projects and we have schooL! so sad righT?hehe..

but last mon on 14 nov i organise an outing for my friends..hehe and its a success..hehe..cool! thanks people for makin that day happen..those who follow are me kyn ella lini fauzan nabilah nataporn hadi sabreena nufail nabilah natalia azmi shahryl and ina! so we went to 7 houses..hehe..first we suppose to meet at 1030 but as usual people are always late..i meet kyn at her bustop at 1030..haha..janji melayu katakan..then ella and shahryl already reach..aft me and kyn reach fauzan and lini tak lama lagi samapi..waited for nufail and sabreena till 1130..haha..late as usual! then we took the bus 168 to go woodland to meet the rest..we tot they reach..but they also late..abt 1 plus..when everybody reach we went to natalia house..her house is the first..everyone was so kecoh! hehe..and then aft that went to hadi house..his granmother house!as walking to hadi house..i was walking behind shahryl alone..hehe i also dont know why i walk alone lah..then i saw something unusual..haha i saw shahryl pants tore..first it was brown colour then purple colour then brown..i was like thinkin to myself why is his pants got brown part..then i realise his pants tore..hahaha funny like hell sia...i dont know why i didnt tell him..so i quickly ran up to natalia to tell her..we both were laughing so hard that we just squat down in the middle of nowhere to laugh!! cant tahan sia!! then i realise lini notice it too and she told him..they tot i didnt know but by then lini realise the others alreayd know..luckily for shahyrl dia bawa samping..so he use his samping to cover it up!! haha..funny lah shahryl..wear baju kurung tak realise koyak! haha.. hehe..his house only got the maid and his nephew..so eat mee hongkong i think..and as usual we kacau hadi and ella cause nataporn spotted the mini copper ella bought for hadi when they were together..ehehe..funny sia! laugh and kacau2 them..hadi was hiding behind the walls cause he malu! sorry hadi and ella! hehe its was just for fun! dont take it too heart ok..hehe..so aft makan we went to ina house..hehe her house so bloody far sia..took the mrt and lRT! haha..sab and nufail jakun cause their first time take lrt..maklumlah budak east side mana ade LRT ni semua..the journey was so long! everyone was so quiet..hehe..by the time we reach ina house everyone was hot and exhausteD! hehe..so quickly aft that we went to natapor house..hehe..his house is bloody nice!! porn ur house nice! at last saw ur mother n bro for the first time..ate chicken curry and mee goreng at his house..hehe..shahryl jakun cause his father is the best golfer in singspore..haha..then talk talk and joke as usual! so aft we go to my house..we walk and then when we in the train we realise azmi ella and shahryl was not in the train..called them and they said they were still at jurong..kan sape suruh jln lmbt..so alighted at clementi waited for their train and cont the journey to my house..in the train everyone was like fast asleep..penat seh!! reach my house at 7 plus..my mum cook roti kirai..hehe...everyone ate except azmI! haha..and nataporn eat a lot alot! i mean alot sia!!then aft that he go output and wans to continue to makn but we were behind time still got 4 more houses..hehe..when porn out of the toilet..hadi nak kencing..when he go in the toilet.he ran back to the livin room and was saying out loud "busuk" haha..his face is so red sia! funny lah u hadi!! who berak tak busuK! malukan porn je! haha..so went to ella house aft that..by then everyone is so lethargic..ler baru 6 rumah! da penat..her mum cook epok2 and samosa..stay for a while...ella your house is so much diff nOW! hehe..so went to shikin house.as usual the mum bought murtabak..all ate..and lini ask to bungkus..tak tahu malu nya lini!by the time we reach kyn house it was 10 plus..hehe..last house was idil! ops i forget to mention his name on top! hehe..and then everyone was tired but his mum cook already! so nataporn hadi nat nab hadi and azmi went to his house..the rest of us went home..we so tired cause the nxt day we have to go skol and ella to werk...

thats basically happen during the raya! anyway i had fuN!..hehe..

great feeling

2005-11-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

its a good feeling after telling what u been worrying and thinkin about...hey girl its a relieve after telling u what i been talkin and thinking about..hehe..glad that u understand..so now put my mind in the ease..i promise after today whenever i feel something is not right..i will tell u straight to the face ok!! no more gossipping!! =] promise?!

anyway yest jalan raya with my ffriends..heheh it was quite fun..i was the most kechorable anooying people ah!! haha..alah takkan jalan raya nak diam lah pulak kan!!! haha..so we went 7 housees..last house is shikin house...hehe...sorry idil i cant make it to your house..if only today im not schoolin i will go to your house..my dad tak kasi balik malam ah!! sorry..next year ok =]? hehe...anyway i wont elaborate..cause i lazy to type..if i eleborate..i take hours to type..it will be very long..i eleborate when i free ok..now i actually waiting to finish photo copying stuFF!! haha..anyway malas nak typE!
have Fun!

its been a bad week for me

2005-11-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

haiz..its been a bad week for me..so many bad things happen..i dont wan to mention anything here...sometimes i wonder why do i blog when i have to restrict what i have to say not to ashame the person or dont wan to hurt any people feelings..i feel so stupid bloggin yet im blogging..haiz im contradicting myself...

first of all i wan to apologize to some people:

ps*name not mention here..cause i dont wan all people to know..you should know who you are..

1st person: - im sorry for intruding into ur life..i know what i said will hurt u somehow..and u wonder why i say that right?just because i care for u..i dont wan to c u hurt..thats it! simple..i know i shouldn say it to u..now im havin some regrets..but what can regrets do cause i DID say it to you afterall..now i can do is to apologize to..im sorry...im dont mean to intrude ur life..i dont mean to pressure u..i dont mean it..im sorry! i promise i wont intrude anymore..do what you thing best for yOu & make You HappY! TakE Care..*huggies*

2nd person: - im sorry for calling u selfish..i just piss at you! it just hurt me....im sorry ok.. =]

im.not.ok

2005-11-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

life is so unfair..life is so full of hypocrites..everybody are hypocrites..even ME!..so life = hypocrites

Im so sick!

2005-11-09T08:28:00.000+08:00

im so sick..i so havin headache..stomachache..feel like vomitting and everything!! i think i got a fever...!~ haiz...i dont wan to come school but my mum was nagging at me..so i just went to school for her sake!!..haiz~...shit..looking at this monitor make me feel vomitting~~

Im.Feeling.not.ok

2005-11-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

first of all..i just want to say that we are goin out jalan2 on monday 14 NOv..so there will be me, kynn, lini, ella, fauzan, ashik(maybe), suhairi(maybe haven contact him yet HeHe), zali(maybe), nufail, sab, nab, nat, nataporn, hadi, azmi, ina and imah...wait i know i got 18 people..now i only got 17..who is the missing person ah??ah yO!...haha i cant think now..sorry!! so this is basically the people goin!! hey im kinda piss off over this organising the jalan raya..got one prob go aft another..i wont spell out the problems here cause i dont wan to hurt anymore people feeling..

you know..im wondering..they say hari raya it is suppose to be holy month where people will ask forgiveness...but why yet people can be selfish and only think of theirself..haiz..y

to the person who is involve: - you know..doesnt mean u dont follow to any outing or anything doesnt mean u dont allow the person to come your house..not that we looking forward that it is a must to come to your house..but the way how you phrase it..it just hurts..it just shows how u are..your character..hey its hari raya..doesnt mean u cant follow doesnt mean u wont allow the people to come..hey do u think u are selfish of saying that? do u that it hurts the way how u say it..especially u! haiz.im totally disappointed in u! haiz..i dont wan to quarrel with you or something but it just shock me!...think of what u said...ok...=[

haiz you know people do change..but as you grow up..you should know what is right and what is wrong..and you should change for the betta..not for the worse...haiz!...
i just end here!...

Yeah! oNe Day Before Raya

2005-11-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

so today is the last day of fasting..yeah!! hehe..which means tmr raya!! hehe money timE!! hehe..haiz..this yr is the first yr we goin raya wout my dad van..we be goin around taking the public transport..argH! buti bet it will be fun..looking at people wearing diff type of baju kurung..hehe!!my school close till tmr..fri i have skol..and its till 6 pm! haiz!! so sad! so late can!! ah yo...hehe..but its ok lah...go skol can meet my kampung clan too!! hehe..confirm got lots of stories to share!! haaa!!

anyway from sat till yest i just finish painting my room..its so troublesome to paint ok..first i thought its goin to be fun!! but aft that it is so tiring..i wanted to give up.wanted to paint it one colour but then i told myself dont give up..hehe..cheh motivating myself..actually not lah..its my baby boncet who motivated me..hehe thanks bee! hehe..anyway painted my room..and yesterday i rearrange my furniture in my room..now my room look bigger!! yeaH! more comfortable..now im goin to save money..im goin to make my room much more nicer so when i get home aft a tiring day i can rest at my beautiful rooM! (dream on aisyah) hehe...

ok ok lets not talk about my room!!

now my house is not in the mess but there is lots of things that haven buy..this yr my family so last minute can..? bunga, alas meja, selendang, make up, and other stuff!! haven buy..now goin to buy!! hehe...ok lah now i still wan to open the chandal and put in new onE! argH!! this is the time when i wish i got a maid to help me!! hehe....

oh ya i wanna take this opportunity to wish all my friends..especially, kynn, lini, fat, ella, sab, nataporn, hadi, natalia, nabilah and to those who know me

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa MaaF ZaHiR BaTiN..AisYah Ingin MemiNtA MaaF JiKa TeRKasaR BaHaSa, And SorRy If I EveR HuRt YoUR FeeLinGs!! MAaFkAn LAh!! So SeLamAt HAri raYa..HavE Fun TOmOrroW oK!! gO CollEcTioN ThEn Aft ThAt CAn Go SHoPPiNg RaMai2!!

PS*JLN RAYA RAMAI2 AH! KAN BEST! MORE COLLECTION!OK!! HEHE..WE LATER CONFIRM WITH THE DATE HEHE...

Truely, madly, deeply

2005-10-24T18:38:00.000+08:00

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need

I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do
I will be strong, I will be faithful
Coz I'm counting on

A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning (yeah)

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining
Brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry

The tears of joy for all the
Pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of

The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
Coz it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need

I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

valerie was singing this song in school..it is an old song..one of my fav song..i will dedicate this song to baby boncet...hehe...

We Belong Together~

2005-10-24T12:33:00.000+08:00

im feeling so high up to the sky!!!!!! hehehe i feel so loved from him!!

to mohd gazali amat,

i love u so much..no words can describe how much you mean to me..you are my one and only one..you are everything to me..only you matters to me..i promise you i love you and only you..i treasure all the times we are together..i will go thru thick and thin together with you.

im back bloggiNG~

2005-10-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

i just remember that my dad birthday comin and i haven buy him anything!! DIE~~ later he will say that i never penting kan dia..that i will penting kan my friends...dad for your info.. my family come in first..just that i dont show it..hehe..i love my friends..they bring me happpiness toO~ hehe...so both of the group are important but family more important..wout you and mum i wont be who i am nOW~~ hehehe...

puasa month is here..so been not fasting..hehe..im such a bad girl~ hari raya..not lookin forward to this cause i will be schoolin..but ppl must go out ramai2 ok..go for collectioN~ hehe...

friends...haiz we are gettting more drifted apart...getting getting more drifted apart.eh people what happen?? i know you all got your own life but doesnt mean you can forget your old friends right??? i alwayz never believe in this saying that " friends come and friends go"...eh please dont make me believe it..i really appreciate all of you...

im bored..please entertain me!

2005-10-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

im in school...now im havin computer class..e tutor is so boring..and lame..so im here blogging...hehe...2 more days to fast..haiz...means i cant eat, drink..and i will be lethargic..and come school nid to climb 4 floor..haiyo! how?? hehe..i be too weak to pay attention in class..and somore i got food showmanship...and TR..it means food..so many temptation but i know i will fast..this is the only religion thinge i did..so sab, nat, nab we must encourage each other to fast..hehe...im saying like as if this is the first time i fast...haha but im just not used to fast in shatec..hehe..oh ya most of the time i will break my fast outside..ah ya not used..see lah mum you dont allow me to break my fast outside..see now i have to break my fast outside...hehe...but it will be fun breaking my fast with my classmates and my friends..

this year i not lookin forward to hari raya..cause i will be schooling..haiz so boring..my mum only buy for me 1 baju kurung cause she say my sis, me and my bro will be schooling..so not much celebration..hehe..but its ok..!! my friends also schooling! hehe...hey peeps..must go out ok ramai2..collect $$..hehe..

to ros: - it was so nice to see u aft so long for not seeing u..thank for your help..i really appreciate it so much..thnk you..i dont know how to repay ur kindnessss...:)

bad daY!

2005-09-27T15:28:00.000+08:00

today so many things happen...i shall not say out here..cause im afraid people will not be happy of what i say..so let it only known among my class..

i feel so bad towards him..i just want to say sorry for saying those things to you in class..i dont mean it...i just want you to realise and proof me wrong..im sorry for saying bad things about your mum..i swear i dont mean it..i was really piss off...i know you wont forgive and forget about it..but i just want to say sorry..its sincerely come from the bottom of my heart..sorry!

but i just want to tell especially to my class..

please dont be racist...we are not racist..we come here to make friends not to make enemy..we come school to study and enjoy our life and in e end get our diploma..we goin to spend next 2 yrs of our life seeing each other so please dont discriminate each other..cause it wont make everyone happy...so please bear with your words and think before you say..thats what i learn from today incident..haiz...

hOme sweet Home

2005-09-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

im back from chalet..hehe..im so happY~ i miss my comfortable bed, i miss my pillow, i miss my mum food, i miss my laptop, i miss my family.conclusion i miss being home..hehe

ok so everyone must be curious what happen right during the past 3 days?

firstly i want to say the chalet is one my best chalet yet the worst? understand?

hehe..bet you all dun..

okla let me tell you what happen..

met nabilah and natalia at eunos mrt station at 130...went to pasir ris aft that..we met valerie at the pasir ris mrt stn..so aft meetin her we st8 went to the chalet..check in everything...i just found out my chalet is block H..i heard stories about block H is haunted..so 3 of us are frighten coz we 3 are sleeping over..hehe..so after check in we put our back all that..change into shorts..we dance and dance and dance like crazy freeks..hehe...and take thousand of photos..just four us..have fun..was laughing like crazy...so everybody was hungry..we went to the nearby food court..i ate soto..sedaP~

aft that we went back to the chalet and started bcame crazy again..3 of us were scared...so we on the "azan" so loudly until e nxt block can hear us..hehe...but we never pray..haha..after that we went to pasir ris to buy hotdog and our dinner..hehe..and also to fetch samrat, saiman and suroj..aft that went back to the chalet...heston and vernon came along aft that..hehe..so all of us having fun..talkin, dancing, gossiping..hehe...as usual~...as tyme went by..one by one fell asleep...samrat, saiman and me were the last person to sleep...it was 5 am in e morning..yet i didnt felt sleepy..soon samrat went to sleep..left me and saiman..so we talk and talk till 730 am..till both of us give up and wen to slp..wake up at 950..bath and then went home to take the food..luckily for me, my uncle send me cause there were a lot of things to carry..so asked my friends to wait for me at e entrance...each guy carry one things..hehe...so as e day went by more ppl came...start e bbq early coz we tot it will be rainin..so we started...and we were all bz eating...then 9 plus it was rainin spoil our mood..my class was all in e room..so stuff..so i stand outside e chalet...by e tyme e rain stop everyone has no mood to bbq...so one by one started to go home...by the tyme it only left me, nabilah, natalia, sabreena, valerie, andy, li ran, herman and heston...so we played twister...hehe it was fun..crazy sia..all diff type of positions..hehe people butt at people face..hehe..so thats how it is....

thats all...its not in fully detail cause there are certain things that shouldn be said..

to sabby: - i love you a lot..sabby u are one of my close friends..so please...dont do what you did...i shall see you on fri ok darling~

since you been goNe

2005-09-19T12:06:00.000+08:00

people..i goin to be MIA for 3 days..so dun miss ok..you can still contact me thru hp..but i be using my old no. that is 9693324* ok...so juz gib me a kol..i b using this no. temporarily..so my mum can contact me easily..
hehe..so people dun miss me too much ok!!....
my skol holiday has started..so this is how im goin to spend my one week

monday :- Chalet..my class havin chalet...at downtown east..sorry peeps u r not invited..its onli
for DHM (B) July '05 people..ehehe be sleeping dere for 3 days...
Tuesday: - Chalet..will b back hm in e morning..coz nid to take all e things from home..luckily
i got my darling uncle to send me to e chalet..thanks paman~we'll have bbq in e nite..
so more people will b cumin..hope it wont b rainin..and it will b so much fuN!
Wednesday: - Chalet..hehe i be goin hm to my lovely family...
Thursday: - be spending the time with my family...
Friday: - schooling..my class have to go safti to serve army guys hehe..!! weeeee~ will onli be
back at 4 am..ah yo..confirm tired like hell sia..have to do service and wash up..hehe..
people wil b slping we have to werk and do wash up..but i bet it will b fun...
Saturday: - will be sleeping e whole day confirm...so tired like hell sia!!
sunday: - my family day..confirm will go out dinner with my family

so that is how i spend the week..3 days with my friends, 3 days with my family and 1 day schoolin..fair right?

hehe oklah i now have to bath and get ready to go chalet..lets juz pray tmr evening not goin to b raining..ok!!!!!!!!! till then chioz~

weeeee

2005-09-16T15:15:00.000+08:00

i feel like laughing...
hahahaha hahahahhah ahahahhaha hahahhaha hahahhahahah
ahahahah hahahahah hahahahah ahahah
i finish my exam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
holiday timE!!!!!!!!!!!
party party party!!
guess what ppl????
i got chalet!! ahaha..at last sia..my frens all plan confirm tak jadi..see my classmates plan jadi..
so chalet here i cum..and im bery happy coz i can sleepover..3 days 2 night!! haha i can go clubbinG!! lini!! i can go club!!! haha..ok im crazy......
nolah...ish ish ish!!
i wan to chill ard with my frens...tok to dem..gossip2...play twister...haha..its goin to be fun nite(hopefully)..hehe..!!! thanks nabilah for makin the chalet things goin oN!!..hehe

shiT

2005-09-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

now i in my lowest part in my life..dis is my 2nd time feeling dis undescriable feeling in my life..e 1st time was when i broke up wit shahryl....and dis time is now..
im juz havin too much streSsssssssssssSSSSSSss now...i have sooo much to tink dat my brain has stop werking...im havin such a bad headache dat i cant take it animore..im in pain! in totally pain..nobody can understand wat im goin thru..i cant laugh..i cant smile..i feel so emotional dat i can break down anytime..im goin thru so much in my life dat i nvr gone thru b4 in my lifE..
i now havin exams..i dunoe y dis is my first time im feeling so stress up with my exams..not like as if dis is my first time takin exams..but i juz afraid to fail..i cant afford to fail any..to b in my school is not cheap at all..and to repeat e module is mean more $$$$$$$...argHH!!! and den my realtionship wit zali..haiz! i dunoe wat to say lah! i got a bf yet i dun have any! get it?! and den my parents..dey are not making me stress..but i dun wan to disappoint dem.. i wan them to feel proud of me...i wan my mum to be proud of me...i dunoelah im so stress...ppl dun understand me...haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AGRHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHH i feel like screamin and screaminG!! i juz wan to b myself yet i cant..i wan to smile..i wan to laugh...but i cant..y am i feeling dis way?? god y are u doin tis to me?! y are u makin me suffer!? i cant take it animore...i tot i was strong..but sumhow i feel e older i gets e more emotional i am!!

i wan to thank my friends for cheering me up..thanks for bein dere for me..im sorry if i vent my frust to all of u..i will be ok sumhow! lets have fun during chalet oK!!!!!!!!!!!!

to shahryl(if u ever read it..but i doubt so yet i still wan to write dis for u)
thanks for being dere for me when i reali nid sumone...thank u..even though i dun deserve all dis especially from u yet u still do ur bez to b dere when i nid sumone..i realli appreciate it alot..i hurt u alot yet u do ur bez to be dere for me..to listen to my probs..i reali appreciate it..thank you is not even enuf for u..but thanks u...u r such a nice guy...it is lucky of shahirah to get u..all e bez to u and shahirah...

to suhaila...

oi gila! haha..tanks for everything..thanks for bein dere when i nid sumone..thanks for accompanying me to go shopping babe! hehe...thanks for listenin to all my crap..all e bez to and *ahem*...

butterfly in my stomach

2005-09-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

argH!! now im in school waiting for my barshowmanship pratical exam.... now im in my skol library with sabby and samrat..instead of studying here i am blogging away...haha ok i memorize everything but im afraid i will get too nervous and my mind will be blank!!!!!!!!!! argH!!!!! sabby is nervous like hell!! haha sabby u will do fine ok!...dun worry... haha actually i got nuytin to blog..so im here writting rubbish....

ok lets talk abt my life...

life to me now is not too bad..but now having exam cause i finishing my semester in shatec..hahaha hopefully i will pass everything.. e most hardest module is beverage..i have to memorize so many bloody thing haiz...oklah now i wan to go back to class and study..haha my this entry is lame!!!!!!!!

untitle

2005-08-21T20:30:00.000+08:00

ppl ask me to update my blog so here i go..

i juz realise sumthing...ever since i started shatec i been so bz tat i rarely been surfing e net..i like my life to be busy...better den sitting ard doin nutin rite..i already rest for one whole yr..so i dun wan to waste animore time..i wan to concentrate on my studies..and get my diploma as soon as possible...

i been splurging ever since i start at shatec..ah yo....dunoe wat i spend on..

even though life has been smooth to me so far i still have sum things dat have to b done...so here e list...

1) i wan my parents to increase my daily allowance....ah yo 10 bucks not enuf..but dunoe how to tell dem
2) i wan my parents to give me weekly or monthly allowance...at least i can feel dat my allowance is a lot..hehe...daily to me not a lot ah...
3) i wan to learn how not to splurge my money..to save money...ah yo..help ppl!!
4) save enuf money to go shopping at Hong Kong..weeeeeee mayb i b goin hong konG!!
5) pay attention to class...dun day dream or gossip...haha cant help it if nat and sabby sit bside me
6) pass all my modules...plz pray for me k
7) i wan NO MORE curfew!!!
8) get my car license ASAP.....sabbY FASTER!! hehe
9) get a car for myself..ah yo...im so broke..cant even afford things wan to buy a car haha any one wan to b my sugar daddy?
10) i wan to buy lots and lots of tops and bottoms!!!!!!!!!!!

CONCLUSION

I wan money.... LOTS PLENTY OF DEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz i got so many plans for myself but e probs are my parents..hopefully they agree...mum dad plz let me out..dun cage me animore....!!!! i cant breathe..how cum i have so tight curfew... i wan to b freeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... whenever i ask to be free u noe wat dey say..dey say dey can but i cant ask dem for money..dey totally wan me to b independent..dey smart rite?dey noe i cant do it..im still skolin! how to survive sia?? but im still happY!!!!!!

hahaha im crazy crazy..of coz lah...i got crazy frens in shatec..sabby, nat, nab, val, everyone..hahaha

sabby and nat like to smack my forehead!! its painful ok!! helP!!!! hahaha..but still i love u both...hehe..

To Sabby: -
hahaha nvr i ever tot we can b cloz..dis shatec make us closer...nvr ever i imagine i will b calling u to tok to u abt my probs..nvr i ever imagine me goin to ur house study..nvr i imagine dat we are now cloz..hehe..but hey im glad dat we are! i love u, darling..thanks for alwayz dere for me...love u for dat.. one advice from me to u..dun b too soft hearted..ppl may take u for granted..in e end u get hurt..i cant c u getting hurt..it hurt me..so try to b mean like me! hehe...hey smile alwayz...oh ya faster ask his name....i wan to noe his name..i wan to hear how he toks...!! haha.. lots of love:- farting gas

to kynn, lini n fat: -
i noe we are bz wif our own life..all of u bz wif ur skol life...but dun forget me k..mit up real soon..mizz all of u so much..miz all e fun we had...but whatever it is..u all are alwayz in my heart..i nvr forget all e memories we had...anyway its been months ever since we sat down and tok...one day make urself free..we shall juz chill and tok craps like we alwayz did...anyway i wanna wish all of u all e bez in ur life..hahaha sound like as if im goin away..nah juz in case...nvr noe wat will happen in e future...
fat ever since we out of sec skol our frenship are getting drifted apart..out of all my frens i will nvr forget u..i noe u from sec one till now.we had gone thru lots of quarrels...and yet we are still frens now...ya u were my bez fren in sec skol and still u are..we may not contact each other..we may not tok to each other, we may not c each other everyday but i nvr forget u...i love u e most..thanks for alwayz b dere whenever i nid u..thanks for listening to my craps, problems...i reali appreciate wat u done for me..im still waiting to mit u up and as usual u will tell all ur crazy stories to me...im still waiting..we mit up real soon k...i promise!..love u..*huggies*
kyn harlo! hehehe sHikIN!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha...hey u crazy kynnie..e fickle minded kynn, e money minded kynn, e materialistic kyn, e skinny kynn, e one hu doesnt noe how to give advice..haha.. hahaha shikin i reali enjoy ur company lots...nvr fails to make me laugh wif ur crazy action and tok..hey thanks for listenin to my probs even though u dun reali give me advise but u cheer me up..haha hey i still love u even though u love to kol me minah! haha..im not ok!! im still aisyah!! minah reborn their hair minah go clubbing minah minum but I DUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha kyyn mit up realllll soooooooooon k!!! *huggies*
lini as for u..we not cloz are we?? but i still love u..u e onli one hu understand me e most!! hehehe...love u for dat..hey i noe u now goin thru diff times..hey im here for u k..anything kol me up..but dun do e same like wat u did today kol me to do sumthing stupid..i dun wan to spoil u lini..hehe bertaubat lah sebelum kamu ditaubatkan!! haha..ok im nonsense..hey lini for now juz chill k..dun do anything stupid..and i mean it..reali worried abt u!!! i noe u dare to do anything but DUN!!! u still have me..u are not alone darling..u still have me, kynn, fat...and dunoe hu..ur skol frens..u still have us..!! i love u lini!! so be strong linie..its not end of e world..u are onli 18..long way to go!! hey mit up real soon k!! *huggies*

hahahahahhahahha

im done its realli long..so to dose hu wan to read read!! to dose hu tinks my blog its nonsence dun waste ur time..!!

lots of love,
sha!

im back ppl!!

2005-08-07T19:45:00.000+08:00

ok ok ok ok ok ok

hahahaha life has been great for me so far..but its been e same routine but so wat! i enjoy it!! haha ok im lame...been bz wif my skol life.

daily routinE : -

630 wake up..go bath eat breakfast..den mit sabby val and nabilah at 750 at eeunos mrt station..sumtimes mit lini too...den reach bukit batok at 840..mit my darling natalia...walk to skol..den skol starts at 9..lesson begin..1030 break for 15 mins..buy snacks and drinks..back to class..end class at 1215 for 1 hr lunch..go to factory canteen by bus...lesson start at 115 or 130..lesson starts..and ends dependin on what lesson...chill at westmall..and goes hm..reach hm change..watch tv..call zali..n slp!

dats my day everyday
haha
it can b quite boring for sum of u..but i find it fun..haha...coz i got wonderful classmates such as sabreena, val, natalia, nabilah,sulaiman...tanks gurls for makin my life in shatec wonderful! hehe...
now its my common test period..hopefully i can pass..ppl pray for me k!

even though i enjoy my life in shatec i do miz my sec skol frens...like shikin, lini, fat n suhaila...ppl go out lah one day...juz 5 of us...mis my sec skol old days!! where u guys gone?!!!! ahyo..dun b soooooooo bz wif ur life tell forget me k! anything juz sms me k ppl..haha sms dun koll budget! hahaha...

i feel like bloggin!

2005-07-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

bla bla bla...haha...wat an interesting starting...suddenly i feel like blogging..so here i am...

e last entry was a summary of my skol... so i wan to write more details...

on 30th of june was my orientation..i didnt noe skol starts on e 4th until on e 30th.. i tot i still have another week b4 skol begins...haha..was sort of nervous to go orientation..i was sort of alone even though i noe man and sabby was goin to be in e same skol..i wasnt cloz wif dem in skol..hehe..so went to shatec..my sis send me..i was lazy to go dere by myself...lazy to walk from mrt stn to my skol..so i reach super early..i reach dere abt 810..i tot i was e first few to reached..so i called man..asking him where is he...he told me he was at west mall wif e others eating his breakfast at delifrance..so i went back to west mall..and met them..i was shocked to noe adam was dere..didnt noe he was goin in shatec..so sat together wif dem..haha was awkward at first..reali didnt how to expect..but man made me comfortable..tanks man!! hehe...so tok to dem wat to expect for skolin at shatec..so aft dat walk back to shatec..we were a bit late lah..so went to e lobby to sign our name and to noe wat class are we in..get to noe me, sabby and adam were in e same class and man in diff class..was sad lah..tot four of us can b in e same class..haha..so we went to our class..as usual we nid to intro ourself in class and dey told us their expectation and all e skol rules..and guess wat their skol rules are e same like BDS...haha...but e diff is dat we allow to bring hp..haha...so all of us have to stand up and tell e class our name and our skol..and guess wat my class have abt 47 students...and 21 is foreigner..and onli 4 malays include me..so few rite?haha..so aft dat dey brought us ard e skol...first impression of skol..reali look like hospital!!! reali!! haha e smell aso!! haha...den aft dat all e DHM students have to assemble in dis seminar room lah...dere dey cont all their rubbish! didnt reali listen to dem..i was bz talking wif sabby and adam..den aft dat make a few frens...hehe..aft dat went st8 home...tot of buyin skol uni at e shop itself coz dere is very long queue at skol..so aft dat went wif my mum to e shop to purchase uniform..but its OUT OF STOCK!!!! but dey manage to give me one black skirt and my scarF!..so i bought myself long sleeve guys shirt..de guys shirt is super big even for me!! their smallest size is super big..!!!

4th july

first day of skol..so met up wif sabby at eunos mrt and bump into adam and valerie in e mrt..went to skol together!! we were super early..hehe so sat in e class..our class super quiet...hehe..first day katakan..haha so we have to sit in dis trainin restaurant..our class tutor is very strict..he is very particular abt puntuality, dicipline and grooming...as usual ice breaking session..den aft dat we went to eat at W.M...and went home..

as days goes by..i get to noe dis mly gurl in my class..so me, sabby, nat, adam, valerie, andy, philbert, vernon alwayz together...eat lunch aso together..hehehe..so get to noe more and more ppl...

CONCLUSION

my class are full bunch of crazy people..each of us have lovers in class..hahaha...funny sia..we all pretend to be steady but we're not..hehe..we already planning for class chalet..haha..still looong way to go...hopefully my class will be as fun as now...coz we b goin to b in e same class for 2 whole yrs.!! so peeps..lets enjoy and study hard k!!

cOnClusIOn aaBT hOW i FeeL

im happy to b in DHM B july 05..dey juz rox!

weeeeEEEeeee

nEW CHApter

2005-07-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

im blogging again..since i got nutin to do..let me update wat been happening to me lately....

NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE HAS START FOR ME

today is my first day at skol...its been so long ever since i go skol...hahaha..my skol starts at 10...and i have to go off from my house at 830..super early rite?? first day..so muz semangat..haha...meet breena at eunos mrt..and coincidenly met valerie(she my new classmates) and adam in e same train..so 4 of us are so noisy lor in e train..hahaha..i was nervous lah..but e rest was so relax..but at least i got adam and breena..so its ok..so we went to our class.today was practical..so we went to our practical restaurants and met wif our course tutor..first he looked so fierce..but as time pass...he crack jokes...quite funny guy..so he intro to us..he told us wat we shd expect..he told us e rules..its so SECONDARY skol..no dye hair..no long fingernails..no bing earrings..long hair shd tie up..does dat remind u of BDS??
dey expect us to b neatly dress...but its oklah xpected lah..train us lah..maklumlah nak kena keja kat hotel...muz b strict...
my class xpected lah a lot of chinese..and foreigner...alot sia!!!!!....haha but got 6 mly...shd b 6 mlys..but juz now onli got 4..include me...so aft e introduction..we were split into two class...coz e "restaurant" can occupy 47 students at one time..so split..sab was in e first group..adam n me..was in e 2nd..she was alone..kesian her..hehe..

oklah..my classmates so far so gd..all crazy bunch of ppl...hehehe...

anyway me slpin now!!!

im bacK!!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

hello ppl..i noe itts been more den a month since i update my blog...firstly i was werking..and im very lazy to update...so let me update wat been happening to me...

i work in robinson for exactly one month..make a lot of new frens..mmost of dem are from U..so smart sia...haiz how i wish i can b as smart as dem..ok lah i like my werking place..my seniors are all frenly..u noe sumthing..my last day of werk 2 of my seniors give me things..one bought me a tshirt..and another give me chocolate..so swit kan..den one of dem give me a kiss..haha of coz lah its a girl..ok lah my werk..not too bad..but its take up all my energy..dats y i nvr blog for so long...hahaha....so now no more werking..

starting skol in 2 weeks..haiz scary sia..mit new ppl..new environment...new surrounding..new system..haiz hopefully i can cope..coz dis skol cost a bomb..make a reali big hole in my parents pocket..so i muz study harD!! pray for me peeps..

oklah dats pratically all...

update again e nxt time!

-_-

2005-06-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

Hello~ hehe..its been so long since i touch my lappy...hehe maklumlah bz wif werk! hmm so wat happen to me??let me c.....

been werking cumin back hm late and den slp..wake up go werk..den cum hm slp..dats wat i been doin..rarely mit up wif my frens.unless my off day...if i not tired...so today went out aft so long since i met my frens..went to mit kyn and imah at town..so went eat puncak and den walk to wisma tot of goin in to top shop..but its cloz! so sad can! mayb they are preparing for tmr sales..since e shops in spore opening till 2 am in e morning..so muz go shoppiNG!!! muz go...i too nid to werk till late at nite..so sad can?!! hehe...but its ok lah once in a while enjoy nite life at werk..haha....crazy aisyah! but hey more werk means more money..more money means more things i can buy..weEeeeeeeeeee yeah!!

this is my shopping list...

* creative mp3 (1KB)
* Samsung hp E330c..i like
* 2 tops from top shop..(brown & green)
* 3/4 skirt
* coral necklace
* shoe
* slipper

i wan to eat swensen and seoul garden too..so tot of goin dere when i get my 1st pay..hehe sape nak ikuut ?? hehe...

so let me tok abt my werk place....

ok my werk place is ok lah..e manager not strict..can tok to lah..not e action2 type..my supervisor like shit..everything dunoe..she is supervisor but she dun act like one sia..not fit to be one..hehe..but she dun care one..i use my hp aso she dun bother one..hehe she like e ayam! dats her nickname in e werk place...i dunoe y she is kol dat..dey say e way she walks..haha..not like chicken lah..maybe her hair..hahahahaha...
ok den got dis person call sara..she indian lah..HINDU..not muslim k...she ok lah can tok to..but cant gossip lah..later e whole store noe..den she tok alot..and sumtimes can hurt ppl feeling..hehe but today her last day..so wont b seeing her animore..hmm who else..oh kak shikin..she quit 30 june..im taking over her place..she is oklah..but she like give me pressure..she wans me to follow her watever she say..like hu she dun like..she wans me to dislike aso..den like susah rite..but she overall is ok..quite cloz to me..den got marlou..she is a phillipines..she is ok..very helpful...no complains from her..can joke arnd lah..hehe..she treated me sakura..yum yum tanks marlou..den got cecilia..she onlie sales associate but act like she e manager like to order ppl ard..even my SUP not like her sia..she likes to ask ppl to do werk..but she do e simple werk..stupid her! den got another malay lady..kak siti..ok lah she a bit like tua2..so cant tok nonsence to her...more to mak cik2 tok..so dun tok to her a lot lah..den got dis JANEY..hehe she is aso a part timer but she is permanent..werd dere quite long aso lah..but she is like sotong..not blur..she onli got 2 hands but she

werk!

2005-05-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

hey its been long time since i update..i now bz wif my life ah..reali bz...haha..ok now i found a job..a job..robinson..hahaha agaiN!!! until e ppl dere jelak already at me..but was glad ah to werk at robinson coz i reali noe how e way their system is..so today was my 2nd day at werk..not bad..im werking alone but make quite a few frens..guess wat? im e youngest!!! haha..e rest is like 20+..wow...haha..but its ok lah..step mature2 lah aku ni..so first day at werk was ok lah juz got sum blisters at my leg..stupid shoe..hehe..guess wat im in ladies shoes department..haha..its ok lah..but to find e shoe in e store is finding a needle in a haystack..so diff..so i try to avoid to serve e customer..did more cashiering..haha...e shoe is so freakin ugly yet expensive like hell..imagine a plain black shoe can cost abt 170...juz bcoz of e bloody brand..but ppl did buy buy dem..all e rich tai tai..hehe..dey can jolly well afford it..so juz standing dere and serve customers..

so today all e part timers have to attend dis class held by mrs england..she is e service manager..she is very particular abt how we carry ourself..she is very strict but very fun..she is very particular how we behave ourself in front of e customers..but its meaningful..i learn a lot..since i b in hotel line..dis class was impt..was fun..at e end of e lesson we have to tell her wat we learn..haha..we cannot repeat wat others say..everyone was so nervous..coz we have to give her 3 points.but it was fun lah..we have to crack our head and remember wat she taught earlier on..if we repeat wat e others say we have to give her 2 point more..haha stressful rite?but at least she noes we paid attention in class..hehe..at least i noe my brain is still working..haha..so aft dat went dinner together wif my collegues..eat bk..was so full..but aft dat all e standing and serving customer took all my energy..haha..so im hungry nOW!!...but i lazy to eat how?!
haha oklah dats all i update..so when im not tired and free i shall update again..toodles!

jUz-Me

2005-05-12T00:51:00.000+08:00

its been weeks since i last blog in..haiz...its not been a gd week for me..reali...

i.broke.up.wif.him

haiz...due to lots of things...i shall not mention here coz it involve sum ppl i noe...so better shut my mouth up!...

im happy dat my parents are happy wif my decision..but am i?!

in order to let my parents be happy i have to sacrifice my love and happiness..but its worth it..my mum seems to b more lively..my dad seem to show me more care and love..so its worth it..but deep down me im still hearbroken..tears kip rolling down...but i cant show it to my parents..dey wan e bez for me..

so i made up my mind..

maybe me not fated to b wif him..ya we gone thru lots of things together..but yet end up breaking up..

so dis is wat im goin to do...

kip myself bz...makes my mum happy by not goin out often..hey do u guys noe i been goin out alone lately..its boring but at least i can ease my mind..but im still looking forward to go out wif u peeps sumday aight...

so here is my list
-kip myself bz
-make my parents happy
-avoid telling my sis secrets
-give my bro tuition
-be happy
-chillin out wif my frens
-werk
-and when my skol starts im goin to put all my concentration on my studies and make sure all my parents hard work putting me to tat skol is worth it...

*to mum dad..im assure u..i will be a better daughter to u both..and i will study hard and be a successful person in life..insya'allah

My*NamE

2005-05-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

A	Awkward
I	Influential
S	Stunning
Y	Young
A	Ambitious
H	Happy

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EasT coasT

2005-05-02T12:45:00.000+08:00

WeeeeEEEEeeeeeeEee..yesterday went out...mit him at 2..but was late so have to take taxi..reach dere abt 215..hehe sorri bee...den chill at his home place for a while..den went to east coast...it was alrady 350..onli porn n hadi had reach...kyn n lini havent reach..kyn haven even cum out of e house..oh migawd..so i decided to take taxi to go east coast..pity hadi and porn..so reach dere abt 415?hehe..den waited for lini n kyn..when they reached..go to mac to eat..decided to take away coz dere got no place..so we kip on searching for a place for us to sit..haha walk ard aimlessly.luckily dere is empty chair for us to sit to eat..so we eat and tok..laugh ard..as usual...den kyn, lini, dee, dan dey all as usual cam hogging..take different pose..as usual..hehe i didnt join in..i was dere juz watching dem..coz zali was not feeling alrite..had little quarrel wif him..*sorry to make u piss off..i promise not to do dat k*.. hmm aft dat decided to walk to parkway...last min decided to play pool for awhile..hehe i did not play coz i juz sux at dat game..hehe..den fauzan came as it was his break time..aft playing pool we juz chill at macdonald/mac cafe...until each one of use decided to go home..i took taxi home..coz i lazy to take bus..hehe anak org kaya tak abis2 naik taxi..hehe..my mum told me to go home late..hehe as usual e noti me decided to chill wif zali first..went home ard 1030..hehe..luckily didnt get scolding from my mum!! hehehe...

dats my day..my story boring rite?haha...

ok had fun!

EVEN E BLIND CAN READ MINE FONT..HAppY ReaDInG!!

WeEeeeeeeeeEeeeeeeeeeeeEeeeeeeeeeeeE!!

2005-04-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

Im sO piSs..ReaLLy Piss!! haiz...

LearN FrOm My Past!

2005-04-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

its been a few days since my last fight wif him..ya i patch up wif me..ya ya u can call me aung..but when u reali love sumone no matter how much he hurts u..u still will go back wif him...dats wat i feel ah..dats wat i call true love..rite peeps?maybe like wat u all say..dere still lots of guys out dere..and we are still young to enjoy life..but hey to me enjoy life is being wif him..ya he have many flaws..alot of them..they can be reali ugly..but i juz love for who he is..? u cant expect me to abandon bcoz dat rite?coz we humans are not perfect..we have flaws..whether we realise it or not...

being with him had been great for me..we had experience alot of ups and downs juz to be together..from my parents to my sensitivity to his flaws..i mean watever couples have gone thru, we been thru also..so yaH..dats how i feel..noone to share..i noe ppl will disagree to wat i juz said..but hu cares..dats ur opinion not mine..so i dun bother abt it..

i noe hehe..i aung alot..but u noe e thoughts of being not his is unbearable..i cant live wout him..i cant live not being his..i cant live wout hearing from him..i juz cant..anyway i also wan to thank to my frens hu had been there whenever i feel down..n tanks for cheering me up..espeacially to FATe..(hey mayb u now not alwayz dere..now we not cloz animore but i appreaciate wat u done for me for e past yrs..), to kyn and porn..hey tanks peeps..haha tanks for ur advices..tanks for cheering me up..tank u!..love u peeps!! ehehe

a ChANge iN mE!

2005-04-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

im lazy blogger...i wont blog unless i did sumthing interesting on e day..so guess wat..??i perm my hair today..i found a shop which cost $50 for perming, cutting n treatment...heheh...quite cheap rite..so decided to go dere..b4 dat went for an interview alone...mayb workin in robinson..so waited for kyn abt 45 mins at bugis..u are LATE! hehe..so ask ard to get to The COncourse..finally reach dere..den search ard for e shop..the concourse was so empty nutin much dere..so went to e shop..hehe...e person cut my hair so much sia...hehe...so thick my hair!! den aft dat perm n do treatment..hehe tanks kyn for accompanying me!! i owe u a starbucks treat..hehe...so my hair not too bad lah...nid to do sum style n buy sum cream...for my hair...

oklah i like my hair..!!

weeEeeeeeeeeeEEee...

ChaK!

2005-04-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

heLLO pPL!!..

I LazY tO BlOG!...

oOK BYe!!!

haha

sigh

2005-04-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

Im IN paiN...

n nobody understands me..

where were u when i nid u!! liar!! liar!! fuck u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate u!! i reali reali do!!! thanks for makin my life miserabLE!!!!! argH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE LIFE.....

LiFe Is So Unfair

2005-04-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

its been 4 days since i update my blog..reason being dat im lazy and dere nutin for to update..did reali nutin dis whole week..hmm let me juz fill up wats i been up to k...

Monday,

stay at home..was tired aft laupasatism..basically i juz slpt, eat n surf e net...ya dats it..BORED rite?? haha nvm i still got 2 more months b4 i start skol again!! yeaH!!

Tuesday,

went out...mit zali during his lunch time..had a little of quarreling coz he wanted to lunch at 1230 instead at 1..but i cant make its since i got interview later on..he broke his promises..haiz!! i hate it...so sad..but haha luckily he change back his lunch to 1..so mit him up..eat mac wif him n his fren, man...so aft dat chill wif him till his lunch time over..so tot of goin to boon lay to go for interview..but change my mind..so i went to bedok alone..no1 to ask..haha so emo alone..so went to e library..so i took abt 10 books to read..greedy rite me? haha..so i walk alrd to find a place to sit den i saw lini n zan..so i sat wif dem..haha lini was reading dis book..funni sia lini read dat type of book..haha shd not mention wat is it..hmm so tot of reading but end up tokin to lini..coz its been 3 weeks since i saw her..haha..den ard 4 plus went out of lib..dun wan to disturb e couple..hehe..so i went to mit zali back to get my key back..so mit him at mac..he was wif his fren faizan n his girl, naz...haiz i got dis feeling dat naz is sort of avoiding me..she was not tokin to me..not her normal self..she onli tok to zali..so heck care..i wasnt even jelez..get a life aH girL..im not unreasonable bitch like u..!! so aft dat went home happiLy haha

haiz at nite was tokin to him*..but end up quarreling over sumthing..HE LIED TO ME ALL DIS WHILE..

HOW COULD YOU DO DIS TO ME, YOU JERK...I SACRIFICES A LOT FOR YOU BUT YET U HURT ME TIME AND AGAIN...FUCKER...U HURT ME ALOT..U MAKE MY HEART BROKE INTO PIECES..OUCH!! U MAKE ME UPSET AGAIN..U DISAPPOINT ME..ALL U COULD SAY IS SORRY??YOU TINK SORRY CAN HEAL E PAIN TAT U CAUSE IN ME? YA WE MAY NOT BREAK NOW..BUT I NOE THINGS WILL CHANGE BTWN US..I DUN LOVE U AS MUCH AS I DID..AND U BETTER GAIN THE TRUST I HAD FOR U ALL DIS WHILE...HAIZ..IM JUZ SO TIRED OF YOUR BLOODY ATTITUDE...

im juz venting my frustration here..looks like tuesday wasnt my day..hey i wan to ask u ppl sumthing..AM I SOMBONG?!! (taggy)

Wednesday

did nutin..didnt even step out of my house..dats how pathetic my life is now...

Thursday,

Haha today i did nutin aso..haha tats how pitiful i am..hey i wan to go out?? i wan to go shopping?anyone wan to accompanY?? ahyo i got no frens..my frens so bz wif their own life..ah yo yo..must make more frens..haha...eh i wan to watch movie..its been so long since we watch movie together..?nxt outing movie can?! haha..eh nxt wed i wanna go perm, treatment n cut my hair..kynnie follow me pLEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha...

ohok..i lazy to type byE!

greaT daY

2005-04-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

weeeEeeeeeeeeee juz came back from lau pa satism!! haha...wat a great day i had..hmm dis is how my day started..(i wan to write in mly..since i read fat n bullu..so wan to compare hu better..haha)

cerita nya bermula begini....

sha kuar rumah...makan kat bawa..lapar..lepas tu minta bapa duit..naik taxi jumpa zali di toa payoh..zali lambat..kena tunggu dia dlm 5 minit..apanya laki..haha..lepas itu kita pegi ke queensway naik bas nombor 93...perjalanan nya jauh..amek kira kira dalam setgh jam baru sampai...jalan jalan...cari baju zali hendak beli tap malangnya takde kedai menjualnya..zali "stress"...kecian sayang aku ni..lepas tu kita makan pau dan makan macdonald...makan byk byk..sampai kembung..tidak tahu mana hendak pegi..kita bersetuju hendak berjumpa dgn kawan2 saya...so kita menaiki bas no. 197..turun di bugis da mengambil mrt...ingat mereka sudah sampai..tapi satu2 belum sampai..ahyo mak..so saya dan zali duduk di depat RC dan berbual bual..tunggu mereka sampai..dalam 10 minit..merek pun sampai..pegi ke pening..dan jalan2..den kynnie sampai..lepas itu kita jalan ke mrt..hendak pegi ke lau p sat..jumpa ella..kita gila2..amek gambar beratus2..semua gila semua gila termasuk saya! haha...bez...mkn di lau pa sat..pastu jln di esplanade..den balik menaiki taxi..tulah hari saya..taknak cite panjang2..penat hendak menaip...oklah tu je...

ps*to ina n kynnie..tolong MENGupdate gambar..jgn lupa..!!love u peeps*

scarY!!

2005-04-15T20:53:00.000+08:00

its friday..yeaH!! haha..naH! nutin special today juz counting down...on sunday confirm rite??!! laupatism?! haha..anything confirm wif me later k!!..

ok hmm today i went to kubur...its been so long since i went dere..so decided to go since i got nutin to do...so went dere wif my parents n bro..my sis cant make it since she got exam at evening..we were tokin abt how my sis ride her motor..den suddenly "BANG"..guess wat happen?? my dad e van mirror break into thousand pieces..and dere is a big hole at e front of my dad..scary sia...e whole thing like wan to crash on us..first we tot e lorry in front of us e stone like hit e mirror...but turn out its e heat..ohmigawd.!! scary sia..my dad stop at e side..n me my mum n my bro went out..afraid dat e mirrow broke..my bro was crying..he was afraid..my mum n my heart wat beating fast..we were afraid..my dad was so steady..he can still laugh..but tank god no one was injure..scary rite?my dad quickly call my uncle to c whether e insurance can cover for us and ask wat to do..ask my dad to tow away e van but he dun wan..he wan to drive..cant c anything sia..e mirror was crash into thousand pieces..told my dad to go home but my mum says to carry on to go kubur..so we went..my dad drive reali reali slow...afraid dat e mirrow will break and hit us..haha every one was looking at us and give us e look "wat e hell"..haha so we went to my late grandparents..haiz..when i reached dere sumthing juz hit me..

our life is very fragile..anytime we can juz b lying dere dead..anytime we can die..anyone even e young can die..

"ALLAH, please dun take my life away..i have done so many sins..i have not yet prepare to die and face you....please forgive watever sins i did..
astafirruallahalazim..maafkanlah dosa dosa ahli ahli kubur..tempatkan mereka di taman-taman syurgamu.."

ya u may say im being angel here but hey sumtimes we nid to remember dat our life is so fragile..we may nvr noe when we die..we wont noe we die e nxt minute..whether we can c tmr..haiz..life is so fragile..so we muz make use every sec to make our life a better life and happy..

ya toking abt happy..im happy now wif my life..i have wonderful and complete family, a crazy n great boyfren and a happy-go-lucky bunch of frens...hey u all do complete me..and makes me watever i am..tanks for alwayz being dere for me and make my life happy..

my parents : - mak bak, thank you fo everything u done for me..u e greatest parents anyone can ask..thanks for all e love and care that u been giving me for e past 17 years..i know im not e goody goody daughter who listens to whatever u say...im sorry for lying to you everytime..but i promise i study hard and make ur life better in e near future..i promise i b a better daughter to u both..love you mum dad!! *muackz*

fateha: - hey fate..we noe each other for abt 6 yrs noW?..quite long ah..we gone thru lots of quarreling n fighting..haha remember when we sec 2..me u mary rosy cabut skol and class...haha..e bez yr for me..hey juz wanna thank you being dere for me whenever im down..tanks for listening to my probs..thanks for making my life a happy one..thanks for all ur advices..thanks for all e laughter u bring in me..thanks for all e happy moments we spend together...and thanks for being my fren..love you lots..*huggies*
ps*hey mit up real soon k..mis your craps ah..hey hope we kip in contact until we die aight?i wan to go to ur wedding..n u better cum to mine..haha

kynnie : - hey been cloz wif u since sec 3 till now?crap wif each other a lot..haha sit wif u in class..from 3d to 4d..haha in e end get e same result for o..haha..funni rite?fail english together2 haha coz of 'u-noe-wat' haha..better not reveal here..juz in case..a lot of laughing together.. u kena punish bcoz of me..haha.sorry kynnie..remember we wld juz sit at bus stop n tok abt everything..haha..juz wanna thank you for all e happiness you bring in my life..thanks for cheering me up whenever im down..haha thanks for being my partner in crime..haha..crazy..haha..be happy alwayz..kip on smilling aight kynnie..and stay sweet alwayz..
ps*oh ya stop being fickle minded..nanti tak kawin baru tau..haha

lini & ella : - hello ppl!! haha sorri for not write each for u..coz we not as cloz as i am to kynnie n fat..but hey u guys rocks!! anyway..even we not cloz but we do noe each other well dun we..?u noe abt me i noe abt both of u..anyway juz wanna thank both of u for being my fren for e past two yrs..eh how cum i got cloz to u ah lini??not in e same class rite??i tink coz of kynnie lah..haha..hmm anyway i nvr regret making frens wif both you..to lini thanks for understanding me..mayb bcoz both of us have e same tinkin abt relationship..other ppl wont understand..haha love to go to u whenever i have probs wif zali coz u e onli one hu understand..haha..anyway thanks for all e advices u given to me..i appreciate dat a lot..hey all e bez to u zan..(hey dun break patch break patch lah..not healthy to realationship) to ella i noe we quarrel a lot..haha used to hate u a lot coz of ur attitude..but luckily u improve..at least better den last time..haha..anyway tanks for ur ear..alwayz listen to my nonsence and probs..anyway all e bez in ur life k..nvr look down on urself k..!! hu noes u may b sumbody later in ur life..oh ya..dun give up hope on love k..love can b wonderfull..but sumtimes it hurts a little..but dats wat we call love rite?anyway all e bez to u k..

to other peeps in my life: -
nataporn, sulaiman, mary, ros, hannan, adliah and to those hu noes me..

hey thanks for making my life happy..thanks for the happy memories..thanks for being my fren...thank you for everything..i wish all of you all e bez in your life..hopefully we b frens for life aight..

AND to all sorry for all e things that i do and say that hurts u..im juz a human..not perfect..have my own strength and flaws..so im sorry for everything k..FORGIVE ME...

haha i may sound like as if im dying...haha but hu noes..i may die e nxt minute..so b4 i die or anything happen i juz like to tis opportunity to thank you all and to say sorry!!...

oklah i end herE..

eh dun forget to taggY!! haha

my thoughts

2005-04-14T15:18:00.000+08:00

im bored..

nutin to update...

haha...

dats will be all...

date wif Him*

2005-04-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i blog....so let me tell u peeps wat happen...

hmm didnt went of my doorsteps till yest(fri)

so friday went to johor wif my family..had fun!! haha saw mats n minahs msia..so ugly sia..haha...not like spore mats n minahs..at least spore ade style...msia like kampung2 like dat..haha so mean me..haha..juz cant imangine myself livin in msia..haha so scary...so went to city square go shopping..haha bought myself jeans, tshirt n bracelet..haha tanks mum!! haha...den went to eat at dis lorong place..so scary sia...ate ikan bakar n tom yam!! yum yum! nice...but was scary ah..den i saw dis man carry a baby monkey..so cute..den he nvr wash hand n touch e noodles..eeeyer!! disgusted by dat scene!! wont eat at such place animore..destroy my appetite sia!! haha den aft dat went home..had an enjoyable outing wif my family..heart u!!

den today went out wif zali..mit him at 2 plus..he came wif faizal...haha sat at coffee bean for a while den went to marina to watch movie..sesat sia..e place renovate..nicer! but lots of ppl sia..haha at last found e movie..so we watch e pacifier..b4 dat went to eat bk..haha..marina no more bk sia..have to walk outside near e busstop..so far..so hungry! den aft dat watch movie..e show nice...!! funny like hell sia!! go watch!! recommended!!..hehe..den aft dat went to RC n bough tshirt n necklace for my self..sliper n tshirt for him..actually got my pay didnt noe wat to spend on..so spend on him!! haha..when i got money nutin to buy..but when dun have money everything i wan to buy..ahyo dats life..

life is unfair..

haiz tokin abt him..i miz him..haiz..

*to zali : - i noe its not fair for u to face dis probs..but let pray together we go thru dis..nutin can make us apart k dear..lets be strong n face dis probs together..i love u so much..ya u mayb not dat perfect in my parents eye..but u are to me..u have my heart n u will alwayz have it..i love u so much more*

im bored~!!

2005-04-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

actually i have nutin to update..nutin to do!! i rot at home e whole of dis week..reason due i cant go out n aso im lazy..coz its been rainin evriday and its nice to slp at tis kind of weather haha...actually on monday went out..mit him during his lunch time..hehe...make up on sat...so treat him macdonald..but he brought along his fren, zal n man...so nvm lah..had fun eventhough its for and hr...tok nonsense..but i was slping in his arms..nice!! i wan..u i wan hug can??hehe..heart u so much!! hehe...oklah im boreD! reali bored.bored kills me..!! nutin to update..bored rite my entry.?haha eh i wan to werk..my skol start onlie on july..so i got abt 3 months..eh help me find a job can?plz...i wan jobby!! job...job...hmm shd i werk at mac??hmm better not...haha..crzy me..

boRedOm!

2005-04-03T18:01:00.000+08:00

so hmm here im stuck at home doin nutin..haven bathe..yet i smell so good..haha..now im so bored dunoe wat to do..so im here updating my bloggie..

yesterday

went out wif him..to pass his presents..tot of watching movie at marina and to mit wif lini n zan but he didnt bring his tshirt(hes wearing his uniform ah)
so went back to his hometown and waited downstairs for him..he wans to change to tshirt..haha..so waited n waited...for 13-15 mins..hes nots down yet..guess wat he do?he was bathing..haha..stupid lah he..make me wait so long..actually me not looking forward to c him..like haiz lazy sia..i wan to go out today..mitting my frens but he cant make it den he threaten me to make mit him yest..so i did..haiz..wasnt a gd date...went to watch a movie the cool..or sumthing like dat..but b4 e movie we ate banquet..ate alot sia..ate chicken rice, chicken chop..wow im so full lor..i was suppose to b on diet..but cant resist food..help! i wan to lose my weight..haha..den watch e stupid show..not nice sia..i dun even understand one bit sia..haiz e movie not nice..dun watch peeps..not nice...den aft dat we went hm coz he wan to shit..haha..den juz went home juz like dat..bored rite?dats how i spend sat..haiz..actually i was piss off wif him..he negelct me totally..so reach hm abt 10..n guess wat?my mum ask me y i go hm so early..crazy sia..when i go hm late she scold..den when i go hm early she ask me..haiz..den at 11 plus call him and we tok abt wat we not happi wif each other..tok out a lot sia..i scold him alot..at last we cum up wif a solutions..hehehe den we make peace again..now im feeling so much love from him..tanks zali for e changes i love u for dat..*muackz*...

eh i wan to werk..im so bored sia..nutin to do..dun xpect me to stay hm until skol startS?hey peeps..dose hu doesnt noe..im goin in shatec during july..im so nervous..its been a yr since i went to skol..dunoe whether can still study..but i promise myself to start hard..coz shatec is not cheap ah..very ex..haiz tanks mum dad for makin it possible for me to continue my studies..i promise i wont let u down.love u both..!!

kl ah b4 i get too emotional i better end my blog here..

confused!

2005-04-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

haiz..i dun feel e same way as i used to feel..i dun feel excited at all..i dun feel loved..im lonely..im alone..my heart is empty..confuse of wat im feeling now? anyone can help me find e ans to my doubt..i dun love him as much i used to...haiz..y am i feelin dis way?? is it sign e end of my relationship wif him??

mayb im juz not fated to b wif him..

haiz

2005-03-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

today was bored.

slp.eat.slp.eat

quarrel wif zali..

haiz y cant u understand me?

y do u onli care abt ur feelings?

y..u nvr love me animore?

haiz

weeeeeeeEe

2005-03-31T15:02:00.000+08:00

helo im back its been so looong i blog in..haha..now my blog nice rite??haha tanks to shikin..tank u shikin..hahaha sayang ko...hehe..i love my bloggie..hahaa...actually i nvr blog in coz im lazy and 2ndly nutin to update...hahaha

yesterday was one of e bez day...had fun wif all my friends...hahaha yeaH!!! tanks guys!!..haha hmm last minute we went to simple plan concert..hahaha all tanks to shikin dream...haha actually me n kyn was planning to go simple plan concert...den 2 person like not fun rite..so we decided not to go..den in e morning(yest) shikin kol me..and told me she wans to go 2 e concert....so we decided to try our luck and kol up e person hu selling a pair or tix for 60...luckily for us she still got e tix..hehe..ard 1 hr later..she told me she got another 3 more tix..haha so we called porn whether he wans to go...he decided to go too..bring along hadi and lini..so 5 of us...hehe i mit wif kyn n porn to get e tix at tanjong pagar...pay her 150 for e five tix..hehehe..so aft dat accompany porn to go doc..since he nvr go for his exam..nid to have mc mah..hahaha..den aft dat went to town and eat puncak..hehe yum!! long time since i eat dere..so aft dat we went to suntec convection hall to queue..haha tot dere will b no ppl..but dere quite of lot of peeps already queue up...so we sit down and waited for abt 4 hrs...den ard 4 plus..sumone sms porn whether he wans another 2 pair of tix...hahaha wow...den we ask fat, zan, ina and her frens.dey all wan to go..so we bought e tix..i went to fetch fat and zan and hadi from e mrt stn..dat zan was late...hehe we quickly ran to e suntec...luckily for me and fat we got to go in..but hadi and zan was still stuck at e entrance..dey cant go in...ahyo...we were separated..haiz we get to b in 2 1st 3 rows..but haiz..it was so pack...everione was pushing wif each other to get to e front...everione was shouting and shouting..suddenly e whole row of e front ppl fell on top of each other..hahaha..everyone was sitting on each other..ouch! pain..porn n lini was sitting on me..sakit tau..krg berat tau..haha aft 20 sec get to get up..ouch..suddenly lini told me she wan to faint..cheh lini can gib me warning first...she suddenly lie down on porn back..and she fainted...ohmigawd we brought her to e front to b carry away 2 e back stage..i follow her coz i cant breathe dere..hahaha and guess wat..3 person have to carry me..wow me so heavy sia...so damn heavy..ya ya i noe..so peeps stop laughing at me..haha...wow dere is alot of ppl fainted sia...sum sprain their ankle..sum have to breathe thru oxygen..haiz..haha all bcoz of simple plan..crazy..haha but was fun..den lini was hungry..dey gave her bread..tak halal nya..hahaha ah yo lini..she was so hungry she doesnt even care...hahaha..nvm lah lini ....dosa ko tanggung ahhaha..den aft dat we get to go out but we stand to e side..hahaha now i was wif lini throughout e concert..hahaha yeah..haha we walk2..den decided to stand at e side..we have to wait quite a long time b4 simple plan perform..but its worth it lah..hahaha..when simple plan perform..lini and i was having fun..we were jumping jumping dancing dancing..hahaha lini was having so much fun dat she forget dat 20 mins ago she fainted..haha yeah! hehe..haha but it was so much fun lor...even though i end wif lini alone..hahaha rite lini?? den aft e concert all of us were so thirsty we went to look for water..and end up have to go 7 eleven near peningsular...hahaha..aft dat went hm..wat a day...tired but was fun like crazy...hehe..reached hm at midnite..aft dat slp...hahah cant tahan..tired sia..!! hahaha i wan to go 2 concert again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe

haiz!! cooL~~!!

2005-02-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

today was sort of bad day and fun day to me lah..okok let me xplain..it was bad bcoz...

i was suppose to go out wif *him* but last minute he says he cant...e reason due to he is sick...haiz..when at 2pm he told me he can....i ask him so many times...whether if he reali can take it..i noe he is sick..dats y i dun pressurise him..den when i wan to get ready he call me sayin dat he cant take it and was too weak to go out wif me...i was like sad lah...but understand ah...dun xpect me to b angry n wasnt suppose to b angry..but i cant..it was so last minute...

so i ask fat out..luckily she can..mit her at 5 at bugis and she told me she bringin her frens..i was like ok but was like nervous ah..tinkin to myself like..kwn apa seh dia bawa..like can get along or not..luckily oklah..can tok..fun to tok to..hehe...and me, fat, and zahira(not sure her name) we were tokin nonsence...looking for my black pants..haha walk ard e whole bugis but cant find one dat can fit me..haha den fat was hungry so eat at BK...eat and tok nonsence..we were tokin abt me goin in nursing, to dirty stuff to bapok..haha nonsense..den aft dat went to og...found my pants dat can fit me and CHEAP...haha actually i got my pay today..hehe so went shopping..bought few more stuff like beg, necklace and tshirt..spend abt 300 today...include my hp bill..guess wat!!!!!!! my hp bill is like 208.50...suck!!!!!!!!! it was my highest bill ever..u noe wat is expensive...my sms..especially to m1...hahaha sms *him* too much ah!! hahaha..but nvm..my mum was like scolding me...luckily she nvr tell my dad sia..if not my hp kena confiscate..tanks mum*love you* hehe..den jalan2..my leg pain sia...so went home abt 10....haiz...tired tmr im werking..sucks! i hate my werkin place..dey not frenly sia...haiz...how i wish time can fly faster..i wan to go back to school again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eh monday result...peeps wish me gd luck k!! i wan to pass my o level!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pray for me k...........................

YEaH!!

2005-02-25T06:43:00.000+08:00

i forget dat i have a blog..dats y im not been updating regularly..so its been 3 days since i blog..hmm let me tink* last few days i been bz werking...werking and werking...werking life sux...i get scolded by e stupid store manager...haiz..dey caught me tokin to ppl...dey stupid sia..den dey expect me to kip quiet if a customer ask me qns?? stupid rite?? den me all alone at e atrium...haiz..so bored..but actually its cool..juz stand dere until 6 and i get paid..haha easy werk rite??buts its boring like hell...reali bored...but i dun mind doin atrium den doin at e store..at least im alone..so i can day dream all day long...day dream and day dream...haha day dream of my prince charming..weEeeeeeee!! haha...

im crazY!!!

hey but dats me..crazy...since i have crazy frens ard me...weeeeeEEEE!!!

hey tmr is my 13 month of being a part of his life...hehe..yeah!!!!!!! i love him more and more.!! ya to b in e 13th month is difficult..so many ups and downs..but yah..i went thru all type of problems wif him...even broke up wif him..but yeah we patch up coz both of us still love each other...hopefully me and him can get married one day!! yeah! i wan to marry him...ya i noe sum of u dun like to be wif me..but hu cares..hes mine..and i love him a lot...

to precious..if u reading dis..but i noe u nvr...

*happY advance 13th month to us*
*lots of hugs and kisses*
i love u more than anything....

boriNG!!

2005-02-22T23:42:00.001+08:00

its been quite long since i blog in...i almost forget dat i got blog..hehe so let me c wat i have been doin for e past few days....hmm i been goin out so much lately...

saturday 19 feb,

i went to werk..it was my first day of werk...i met huda and mus at dhoby ghaut mrt station...went straight to werk...we were walking ard e john little to find e staff entrance..at last we found it...hehe..so we went in..and was given e slide card...and instruction to go to somerset for our cashier training..haiz its my 6th time goin dere...haha went to training for e fun of it...hehe..aft dat its our lunch time...went back to werk ard 1pm...so have to wait for e manager in charge to instruct us wat department...she talk and talk for abt 3 hrs...hehe...by e time she tok and took us ard e shop it was abt 5 pm...haha one more hr to finish...so went to cashier till and do sum cashiering...didnt realise it was 6...haha..qucikly punch out and rush to orchard...hehe...e mrt was so pack wif ppl...ohmigawd..i have nvr seen so many ppl in my life b4...e mrt was so pack...cant get in..have to wait for another train...reach orchard abt 630 pm....hehe everibody was like waiting for me...den went to far east to eat...have to walk long way in order to go far east...town was so pack wif ppl..all wanting to go chingay...hehe...went to eat at puncak..aft dat we walk and stop near mariot hotel...haha juz on time to c small fire works...aft dat we wallk to orchard mrt station..tot of goin hm but it was early..so we walk2 at wisma...hehehe...aft dat we went hm...

sunday 20 feb

was at home..slacking chilling..eating...slping..dats my day

monday 21 feb

went out wif zali...met fateha and eat ice cream at gelare...tok abt old times...fun chilling wif her..hey fat one day we shd go out and chill again..den aft dat mit *him* went eat puncak and chill for a while at town..den went to yck for him to re-book his motor prac...hehe...aft dat went to our usual place and chill till late at nite...den he send me home...hehehe have a fun day...

tuesday 22 feb

did nutin...teach mahdi mly compo...eat..chill...watch tv..surf net...and now bloggin in...hehe...

tats wat i did..boring rite??dats e life of a person hu doesnt skol...no life at aLL

boriNG!!

2005-02-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

I gOT a BloG agaiN!!!!

2005-02-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

hello peeps...its been so long since i got myself a blog....my previous blog is not in use animore...long story....haiz...haha
ok forget abt it k..now this is my new blog..anything juz read dis bloggie k...i end dis for now..chao~

PeeK iNtO mY LiFe

hello peeps

happy new year peeps!

=]

i dont know what to bloG!

haiz

haiz im sad can!

i dont know what to write

boredom.kills.me

woke.up.at.the.wrong.side.of.bed

selamat hari raya!

great feeling

its been a bad week for me

im.not.ok

Im so sick!

Im.Feeling.not.ok

Yeah! oNe Day Before Raya

Truely, madly, deeply

We Belong Together~

im back bloggiNG~

im bored..please entertain me!

bad daY!

hOme sweet Home

since you been goNe

weeeee

shiT

butterfly in my stomach

untitle

im back ppl!!

i feel like bloggin!

nEW CHApter

im bacK!!!!!!!!!!

-_-

werk!

jUz-Me

My*NamE

EasT coasT

WeEeeeeeeeeEeeeeeeeeeeeEeeeeeeeeeeeE!!

LearN FrOm My Past!

a ChANge iN mE!

ChaK!

*sigh*

LiFe Is So Unfair

greaT daY

scarY!!

*my thoughts*

date wif Him*

im bored~!!

boRedOm!

confused!

haiz

weeeeeeeEe

haiz!! cooL~~!!

YEaH!!

boriNG!!

boriNG!!

I gOT a BloG agaiN!!!!

sigh

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